Sunday Scribblings: Fuzzy


On Sundays, I participate in Sunday Scribblings, a weekly writing prompt challenge. There are no rules within the challenge, however I am imposing the same rules that I follow for Five Minute Friday: Write for five minutes (or so). No editing, revising, or over thinking. Just write.

Today’s Topic: Fuzzy

It makes me sad that my memory has become so fuzzy over the past few years. People keep telling me that it’s just the way age is but I’m really not convinced. My best friend from childhood, Liberty, has an amazing memory. While my memory has not failed me on the big events in life, her memory can summon even the smaller moments. Maybe that’s why God has brought her back into my life; to trigger those happy days again and not dwell on the loss of my own memory.

I talked to my mom yesterday, and she had been to a party with one of my dad’s brothers, who has early stage of Alzheimer’s Disease. He’s maybe 10ish years older than my dad. My dad also has an older sister and another older brother whose memories have started failing pretty badly. It hit me last night that this could not only be my father’s near future but also my own, as Alzheimer’s and dementia are strongly related to genetics.

So if my memory is already so fuzzy at 36, what will it be like when I’m 66 like my father? Will it hit me sooner? Is there anything that I can do now to help keep it from happening?

This is why I write. This is why I blog. This is why I need to get back into the habit of writing on a regular basis again. Winter is gone, so hopefully my Seasonal Affective Disorder will soon take a vacation, as well.

Read other Sunday Scribblings posts on the topic of ‘Fuzzy’.

 

Top 10 Things I Experienced on My Quest to Find Aliens

Because every moment of my life has to have a back story (ask my husband), I must fill you in on a few things before getting to the really good stuff.

For the past 10 years (or so), David has attended the Microsoft Management Summit for business, and for the past 5 years I’ve tagged along for pleasure. The conference has been held in Las Vegas for at least the past 5 years, so last week was my fifth visit to Las Vegas. The excitement of a new city to explore has waned a little bit each year, but now it’s turning into a more familiar city that I get to re-visit now and still find new adventures. Every year we count our blessings that we get to go another year, so I am definitely NOT complaining that the conference has been in Las Vegas every year. Plus, we have friends who live in Vegas, so it’s extra nice to be able to visit them.

The conference began on Monday, but we flew in on Saturday, and picked up two of our friends to drive about 90 minutes north of Las Vegas to Alamo, Nevada. Do you know what’s in Alamo, Nevada? Not much! There’s a few places to stay, a tiny little town of modular-looking homes, a couple of gas stations, a cemetery, two places to eat (one of which is open when the owners feel like opening), and a public hot spring. The place we stayed was also the only restaurant in town that had set hours, so we pretty much ate there most of the weekend. It was cool at first, but it got old really quick.

On Sunday we drove another hour northwest along the Extraterrestrial Highway to Rachel, Nevada, which is about as close as civilians can get to Edwards Air Force Base, otherwise known as Area 51. You can Google Area 51 and read all about it on your own without me giving you all the details, but for the purpose of my story (and to keep you from meandering away for too long), Area 51 is supposedly where the government is hiding the aliens…or something like that.

So without further adieu…

Top 10 Things I Experienced on My Quest to Find Aliens

1. I can survive a weekend being nowhere near a Starbucks and/or modern civilization. It helps that I packed an electric kettle and some Starbucks Via. If you want to call me a cheater, then you can also call Boys Scouts cheater for always being prepared. I do give them credit for decent cell reception MOST of the time!

1. I can survive a weekend being nowhere near a Starbucks and/or modern civilization. It helps that I packed an electric kettle and some Starbucks Via. If you want to call me a cheater, then you can also call Boys Scouts cheater for always being prepared. I do give them credit for decent cell reception MOST of the time!

We probably should have worried that the Alien Research Center was abandoned on a day when it was likely to get the most business, and there was a lone RV out back with no signs of recent activity.

2. We probably should have worried that the Alien Research Center was abandoned on a day when it was likely to get the most business, and there was a lone RV out back with no signs of recent activity.

3. When there is little entertainment venues for millions of miles around, the Ash Springs hot springs is THE place to have your picnic/pool party/ hot tub/family reunion/dating game/weekend getaway. Plus, it feels really awesome!

3. When there is little entertainment venues for millions of miles around, the Ash Springs hot springs is THE place to have your picnic/pool party/ hot tub/family reunion/dating game/weekend getaway. Plus, it feels really awesome!

4. 4.When driving along the flat, empty desert, driving 100+ MPH  really fast doesn't feel as awesome as it does when driving 100+ MPH really fast while passing cars and flying by road signs, or so I imagine. It mostly feels the same as driving 50MPH, I assume.

4. When driving along the flat, empty desert, driving 100+ MPH really fast doesn’t feel as awesome as it does when driving 100+ MPH really fast while passing cars and flying by road signs, or so I imagine. It mostly feels the same as driving 50MPH, I assume.

5.There are moths out to kill you. I REALLY wish I had a photo of one of the MANY that we saw, but pretend that I took this, because this is how they make you feel!

4. There are moths out to kill you. I REALLY wish I had a photo of one of the MANY that we saw, but pretend that I took this, because this is how they make you feel!

6.Random strangers who work for JackFM who are also on a trek to find aliens are a lot of fun, and they won't think twice about following you out to the Area 51 gate or posing for pictures with you. People on Alien Quests are all completely normal people and should be trusted 10 miles away from the nearest anything.

5. Random strangers who work for JackFM who are also on a trek to find aliens are a lot of fun, and they won’t think twice about following you 10 miles down a dirt road to the Area 51 gate or posing for pictures with you. People on Alien Quests are all completely normal people and should be trusted.

7.The lady who runs the Little A'Le'Inn tells amazing stories and turned out to be the true highlight of the entire Alien Quest, and she doesn't think twice about asking you to step behind her bar for photos, probably because she's met THOUSANDS of weirdos just like me! Her name is Pat!

6. The lady who runs the Little A’Le’Inn tells amazing stories and turned out to be the true highlight of the entire Alien Quest, and she doesn’t think twice about asking you to step behind her bar for photos, probably because she’s met THOUSANDS of weirdos just like us! Her name is Pat!

8.The cake is a lie.

7. The cake is a lie.

9.Bring AND wear lots of chapstick. No, not for the aliens! Wear it for the wind, because it's incredibly windy out in the desert. Besides, the aliens might be nicer to you with smooth lips.

8. Bring AND wear lots of chapstick. No, not for the aliens! Wear it for the wind, because it’s incredibly windy out in the desert, and later you’ll wonder why your lips are so chapped. Besides, the aliens might be nicer to you with smooth lips. Maybe.

10.Just because I have no recollection of finding aliens does not mean that it did not happen.

9. Just because I have no recollection of finding aliens does not mean that it did not happen. I have been experiencing problems counting correctly lately…

11.Trips to the middle of nowhere are much more fun with awesome friends!

10. Trips to the middle of nowhere are much more fun with awesome friends!

Stay tuned for more Las Vegas adventures!

“The purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience.” ― Eleanor Roosevelt

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Writer’s Block and Seasonal Affective Disorder

It seems the more I feel like I should be writing, the less I feel like writing. I am thankful that writing is not my full time job, because I’d definitely go hungry. I admire people who can write for a living and glad that they do, because it gives me so many awesome books, short stories, essays, blog posts and articles to read. I’m also pretty sure that the idea that “OMG I HAVE TO WRITE” is what kills my writing creativity and desire.

On my writing to do list lately, in addition to blogging, is writing some book reviews and Yelp reviews. I sat down to write a book review, and hit the wall. I tried writing something, but my heart wasn’t in it, so I put it aside. I hate waiting awhile to write book reviews, because the more I get into reading another book, the details from the book I need to review start sinking back into the recesses of my memory, and I start feeling like I’m not doing the book review justice. Seriously, the guilt in writing sometimes kills me, and I know it shouldn’t. I got some Yelp reviews in yesterday, and that seemed to help get the writing juices flowing again, so here I am!

I’ve looked into using writing prompts again like I did in the fall, but they don’t seem interesting to me. I feel certain that this block is all due to the time of year it is for me, because I am always incredibly despondent this time of the year. It usually begins in January and lasts through February or March. When spring arrives, I come out of my shell. SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) lights don’t seem to help much. Every year I have to remind myself that it’s just an annual phase in my life, and things DO GET BETTER. But still, the constant sadness and depression usually starts to creep in and tell me lies that I’ll be stuck this way forever. I know the depression demons tell lies, yet it doesn’t stop me from believing them at times.

Usually the writing that ends up winning, in these cases, are the ones where I just pour out my heart and soul, letting anything that comes out make it on the screen or on the paper. You know, like I’m doing now. Just like the quote below says, any writing is better than nothing at all.

What do you do to combat the writer’s block? Are you affected by Seasonal Affective Disorder?

“Writing about a writer’s block is better than not writing at all.”
― Charles Bukowski

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Weekend Links 2/15/13

Have you started your Christmas shopping? I’m almost done. If you find a little extra time this weekend, I’d like to recommend checking out these links that I found this week. 

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What were some links that you enjoyed reading this week? 

Liebster Award

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I was surprised this weekend to find a message in my Inbox that I had won a Liebster Award…? Yes, that’s a question mark. I had never heard of it before this weekend and quite honestly thought it might be something like a chain letter in blog form. Well, maybe it still sorta is in a round about way, but it’s cool nonetheless that someone thought to recognize me! I admit, I’ve been struggling lately that my blog has little significance in the wide world of the web, and my inspiration has been waning. Maybe this was one of those serendipitous gifts that happen in life.

Have you heard about the Liebster Award? It’s an award bloggers give to one another to help spread word of newish/little known blogs. To get one means the person who gave it to you appreciates the work you do. And I got one! It really means a lot to me to know that there are people out there who are actually reading my blog and can relate to the things I write about. So, I especially want to thank The Introvert Files for nominating me. (Note: I pretty much copied this paragraph from the blog that nominated me.)

What is a Liebster?  The meaning: Liebster is German and means sweetest, kindest, nicest, dearest, beloved, lovely, kind, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, and welcome. Each award comes with instructions that vary somewhat. My instructions are as follows:

1. List 5 facts about yourself.
2. Answer 5 questions given to you from your nominator.
3. Create 5 new questions for the bloggers you nominate for the award.
4. Chose 5 bloggers with 200 or less followers to nominate.
5. Go to each bloggers page and let them know about the award.
6. Thank the person who nominated you and link back to their blog.



1. List 5 facts about yourself

  1. I identify as an introvert because I require a large quantity of time at home doing my own thing or being alone. It doesn’t mean that I am antisocial, dislike people or don’t like to talk. I am actually very much a people person, but I do have limits. I do, however, hate talking on the phone except when I am in a car for long periods of more than 10 minutes. 
  2. I randomly met my husband online through LiveJournal 10 years ago tomorrow (February 11th). He posted about the Pancake Pantry, which was across the street from where I worked at the time. In 2003, it was rare to find someone online within such close proximity to you. I was married to someone else at the time, and we were just friends until 2008 after my divorce. He was the guy friend giving me dating advice, and before we knew it we were dating! February 11th has been Pancake Day for us every year since we started dating. We married on Leap Day last year, so February is a big month for us.
  3. My birthday is Valentine’s Day, and I LOVE it! My mom’s birthday is Independence Day, and she LOVES it! 
  4. I am often an open book, maybe too open. I really don’t keep a lot of secrets and tell people pretty much anything if they ask. Sometimes they don’t even have to ask, and I tell too much! I am good at keeping other people’s secrets but not so good at keeping my own.
  5. For the longest time (at least 20 years), I claimed to be 5’6″. In all that time, I was never truly measured until last year when I was measured at 5’5″ by two different healthcare providers. This has bothered me more than gray hair, getting older and any time that I gained weight. I’m not sure if I shrunk an inch or I was inaccurately measured in my teens. 

2. Answer 5 questions given to you from your nominator.

  1. What topics do you find yourself blogging the most about?
    I usually blog about writing, being an introvert, reading, my faith and my health. 
  2. Is blogging a pass-time for you, or have you made it a part of your career?
    It’s definitely a hobby for me. I have considered trying to write professionally, but I fear that I will lose interest if it becomes required for me.
  3. What’s your number 1 guilty pleasure?
    Reality shows about alternative relationships and lifestyles, such as 19 Kids and Counting, Sister Wives and The Little Couple. Reality game shows hold no interest for me.
  4. What achievement are you proudest of?
    Having the courage to better my life instead of sticking to what I know. This has happened at least twice in my life, so far. 
  5. If you could prevent one thing from happening to you in the past, would you be a completely different person today and would you rather be that different person than to have lived through whatever thing had happened to you?
    Oh, absolutely not. I truly believe that things happen for a reason, and that if those things hadn’t happened to you, then you wouldn’t be the person you are today. I often use my divorce as an example of this. If I hadn’t been in the relationship with my ex-husband, I wouldn’t be the wife to David that I am today. I had to go through that season of my life to be in the season that I am in today. 

3. Create 5 new questions for the bloggers you nominate for the award

  1. Why do you blog? Do you ever feel the words inside of you just need to get out? (I know I cheated and made that two questions!)
  2. Besides writing, what other hobbies do you feel lets your creative side shine?
  3. Is there someone in your past you wish you could reconnect with but either can’t find that person or are too afraid to reach out?
  4. What’s your favorite Starbucks drink order? If you’re not a Starbucks fan, then what’s your favorite dish to order at a nationally recognized restaurant? Or you can answer both!
  5. What is one trait from a parent, relative or guardian that you are glad was passed onto you? This can be physical, emotional, personality, etc. 

4. Chose 5 bloggers with 200 or less followers to nominate.

5. Go to each bloggers page and let them know about the award.

Done!

6. Thank the person who nominated you and link back to their blog.

Thanks goes out to The Introvert Files!

 

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Weekend Links 1/25/13

If you find a little extra time this weekend, I’d like to recommend checking out these links that I found this week. 

What were some links that you enjoyed reading this week? 

Also, don’t forget that if your life has been touched by mentoring, I’d love to hear your story!

Life Lately

This is long, but I won’t apologize. You have been warned! In my defense, there’s a lot of words in my head that need to get out since I haven’t been blogging regularly.

Habits are mostly good to have. I’m a creature of habit. I’ve written about it in the past, so I won’t dwell on the subject. Blogging is a good habit for me to have, but I’m finding that it’s also a habit that is, unfortunately, easily broken. Life has been busy since the holidays with no sign of letting up. That’s okay, though! Keeping busy is usually good for me because it keeps me from getting back into bad habits, like snacking, staying up too late or sleeping too much when it’s not night time. Those things usually trigger depression, which I have still been battling lately, as well.

So thoughts have been forming in my mind, but I just haven’t taken the time to get them out of my head. They’re mostly random thoughts and not very lengthy, so they end up in my personal Facebook, but I should probably be sharing them in my Blog Facebook, as well. Oddly enough, there’s several thoughts that I will post in this blog instead of on Facebook, even though this blog is public. I guess I feel that my blog is more of a selected audience, and the people who take the time to read it should be “treated” with something a little more…I don’t know…special?

What’s been going on with me? You know, New Year’s Resolutions and all, those things that I say that I don’t make but subconsciously I do? I guess as long as I don’t write them down, I don’t feel the guilt of failure if I don’t succeed. I have been trying to get back into working out. I started slacking in October, so I’m jumping back on now. I have no doubt that the lack of exercise and reverting back to bad eating habits is what has slowed my weight loss. I maintained pretty much the whole month of December and half of January. I’m not complaining, but maintaining is not where I want to be. I did that for many years already!

Shortly after the New Year, I decided to go for a Couch to 5K plan (C25K) and found an app on my phone to help me. I’ve tried jogging in the past and didn’t get very far with it. This time I’m trying it on a treadmill so that I HAVE to jog or fall flat on my face since the belt is moving that much faster. I started on Monday, January 7th and felt incredibly accomplished after finishing the first day! I was feeling so accomplished that I decided to do a little strength training afterward. I did a few sets on a few machines and was on the last one before it was going to be time to head to the showers. IT was the Compound Row – one of my favorite machines! I can row like nobody’s business, doing 2-3 sets of 50. I was halfway through a second rep when I felt my back seize up and OMG THE PAIN!

I had a disc in my lower back rupture in 2005 that caused tremendous pain for about 6 months, as well as nerve damage to my sciatic nerve. I had back surgery that year, which cured the worst of the pain, but I have about 2-4 flare ups a year. This was one of those flare ups. By Wednesday, the pain was excruciating, so I went to the doctor, and she referred me to the spine clinic. I don’t know why I never looked into it sooner since I have had had major surgery on my back, but meh…that’s here nor there now.

The pain had mostly subsided by the following Monday, so I went for Day 2 of the C25K, and had an appointment with the spine clinic that morning. X rays showed that I had no major damage but have some “arthritic changes” in my lower back, and the flare ups are common for people who have had back surgery like I have, usually due to scar tissue. The doctor wasn’t concerned that the disc had ruptured again but suggested that I try physical therapy to build a stronger core in the hopes of lessening the frequency, duration and level of the flare ups that I am bound to experience.

Yesterday was Day 3 of the C25K, which technically wraps up the first of 8 weeks, even though my first week was split up into 2. I’m getting up at 4:30am MWF to get to the gym to do this. I am SO not a morning person! Yesterday was also my physical therapy consult. I’ll be doing that 2 days a week for at least a month. I’m also going to water aerobics on Thursdays after work, and also planning to meet a group of post-op weight loss surgery people twice a month on Saturdays.

Hopefully all this means I’ll be too busy to snack, be depressed and sleep too much! That’s my life lately 🙂

“Whatever you are doing, love yourself for doing it. Whatever you are feeling, love yourself for feeling it.” – Thaddeus Golas

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2012 Year In Review

I have filled out this same Year In Review on New Years Eve every year since 2008. I’m not even sure where I found it, but I’m sure it was on LiveJournal since that’s where I’ve posted it every year. I thought I would post it here this year in my new blog (as of this year). I took out a few insignificant questions and added a few others, as well as re-ordered the questions.

You can read the past Year In Reviews:
2011
2010
2009
2008

 

Life Events

Where do you live now?
Nashville, TN – in our home for 2 years this month

Where did you begin 2012?
David and I spent our New Year’s Day in our home. We stayed up until midnight then promptly went to bed like old folks.

What was your status by Valentine’s Day?
Engaged to David, together for 3 years at that time.

Where did you go on vacation?
Savannah for the wedding in February
Center Hill for crafting weekend in March
Las Vegas for MMS in April
Orange Beach for Labor Day in September
Detroit for David’s Grandma’s funeral in October
Detroit for Thanksgiving in November

Did you know anybody who got married?
David and I in February
Megan and Todd in December

Did you know anybody who passed away?
Lucy Proffitt (David’s maternal grandmother) on October 8th. She was 94.

Any new additions to your family?
No

Have any life changing events in 2012?
Getting married in February
Weight loss surgery in July

How old did each member in your family turn this year?
Tonya – 35
David – 42
Shelton – 13
Copper – 10
Penny – 5
Dad – 65
Mom – 58
Matthew – 28

Memorable Moments

January – Game Night with the Introverts
February – Wedding in Savannah
March – Crafty weekend
April – Las Vegas for MMS
May – Gisel & Devin visited
June – Dad’s 65th Birthday
July – Surgery July 23rd
August – Wilson County Fair
September – Orange Beach trip for Labor Day
October – David’s Birthday at The Melting Pot
November – Thanksgiving in Detroit
December – Gingerbread Housemaking

What was your best month?
February

What has been your favorite moment(s)?
Marrying David and the whole Savannah vacation
Thanksgiving with David’s family
Christmas Eve and Day with my family
Gisel and Devin visiting for a week

Describe your birthday.
Pie in the Sky Pizza with the family

Favorite Night[s] out?
Savannah nights with the family, especially the ghost tour
Little Black Dress Club events

2012 Events

What’s the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2012?
Finally be approved for weight loss surgery

Made new friends?
The Chandlers – we met them late last year but really got to know them this year
Jennifer – My closet mate at work

Were you in school (anytime this year)?
No school, but I took a few classes at work.

Did you have to go to the hospital?
Yes, I had Roux-en-Y Gastric Bypass surgery on July 23, 2012.

Did you have any encounters with the police?
No

What sporting events did you attend?
Nashville Rollergirls

Did you make any major purchases?
The wedding was definitely a major purchase.
We also had to pay nearly $4K to get my Volkswagen’s transmission replaced.
We purchased new chairs for the living room.
I bought a new Alienware laptop.

Change your style?
I had a keratin treatment in May that straightened my hair for a while. It was cool while it lasted but really all I wanted to do was control the frizz. The wearing makeup thing that I did in 2011 didn’t seem to carry over very far into 2012.

Start a new hobby?
I can’t say that I started anything new this year, but I did read more this year than last year. I got a Kindle for Christmas last year that I have thoroughly enjoyed. There are a TON of free and lost cost books that I discovered this year that I might not have ever read if I didn’t have a Kindle.

What was your single biggest time waster in your life this past year?
Facebook!

What was the best way you used your time this past year?
Writing and blogging

Growth

What was an unexpected joy this past year?
Getting back into writing has truly been joyful for me. Writing daily in the months of October and November were very rewarding for me, but I found that having a daily writing prompt is what I need to write every day. Halfway through the month of December, and I haven’t written anything!

What was an unexpected obstacle?
The first year of marriage.

In what way(s) did you grow emotionally?
I learned that I have many flaws that I need to learn to control or change. I am not easy to live with, and it’s not always easy to live with others. I need to manage my expectations of others better.

In what way(s) did you grow spiritually?
With blogging again, I got back into the root of my Christianity. I sought out a new church that fits my beliefs. I am still learning every day to just love people no matter what.

In what way(s) did you grow physically?
I shrunk physically more than I grew, thank God! For a while after my surgery I was into exercising again, but when Fall hit I got back into my old routines.

In what way(s) did you grow in your relationships with others?
I have learned that with some people in my life, I have to stop projecting my expectations onto them or stop predicting how they will react.

What was biggest thing you learned this past year?
I have a food addiction that weight loss and surgery will never “cure.” I learned that just like any addiction, I need to focus on one day at a time.

Any regrets?
I’ll say it again: I try not to live with too many regrets. Just learn from them and move on.

Are you happy to see 2012 go?
I always look forward to the future and a new year.

Overall, how would you rate this year?
This year was pretty awesome again. David and I are still learning to live together, even after two years. It’s proven to still be a big adjustment for both of us, but it gets better every day.
I no longer feel like a newbie at work and definitely more comfortable with my role.

Create a phrase or statement that describes 2012 for you.
Just For Today

2013 and Beyond

Do you have any New Year’s resolutions?
Lose weight
Save money
Cook healthy meals
Usually the same each year, but I’m adding a few more items this year:
Love more
Accept more
Be more patient

What do you want to change in 2013?
Lose weight, save money…but what’s new with that?

What are you wishing for in 2013?
Health, love and happiness

Notable Books Read in 2012

  • Let’s Pretend This Never Happened: (A Mostly True Memoir) by Jenny Lawson – I discovered Jenny Lawson in 2011 when several thousand other people discovered her when she posted her blog entry, And that’s why you should learn to pick your battles. Her humor amuses me to no end, and I wish my style of writing was like hers. I patiently awaited the release of this book and was lucky that it came out the week that I was on vacation. I laughed so much that my husband read the book and insisted that his mother read it, as well. Her sense of humor isn’t for everyone, so if you’re not familiar with her, I suggest that you check out her blog first, because her book is very much like her blog entries. She is brutally honest about her relationship with her husband, as well as her struggles with depression and illness.
  • Room: A Novel by Emma Donoghue – I came across this book thanks to one of the Kindle newsletters that I receive for discounted and free Kindle books. I’m surprised I hadn’t heard of it before, as it seems to have garnered a lot of publicity when it came out 2 years ago. The story is told from the perspective of a five-year old boy who has lived his entire life in a single room due to his mother being kidnapped 7 years prior. I really learned to view life from a whole different perspective in reading this book and counted my blessings in the ‘normal’ life that I have lived.
  • 7: An Experimental Mutiny Against Excess by Jen Hatmaker – This book was discussed through an online book club that I follow. The idea is that the author took 7 areas of her life and concentrated on one a month to see how she could live a more simple and less excessive life in each area. It’s truly a learning experience in the materialistic ways that we have become accustomed. I have yet to have tried my own 7 experiment, but the book still resonates with me.
  • The Family Fang by Kevin Wilson – I found a link to this book sometime in 2011 and bookmarked it on Amazon. When I got my Kindle and an Amazon gift card for Christmas last year, I decided to give this book a try. I was reminded after reading the book that the author is the cousin of a co-worker of David’s. I enjoyed this book because of the quirkiness of the family in the book. The parents raised their two children in a unique way, but the children longed to just be normal.
  • The Quickening by Michelle Hoover – I really don’t know what drew me so strongly to this book. This was another Kindle deal that I found that I believe was a freebie at the time. The genre is historical fiction, and focused on the lives of two women over the course of several years. I enjoyed stepping back to what life was like nearly a hundred years ago and to see how different it could have been if I was born in a different time.

Weekend Links 12/28/12

It’s the last weekend of 2012! What plans do you have to end this year and begin 2013?

What were some links that you enjoyed reading this week? 

Also, don’t forget that if your life has been touched by mentoring, I’d love to hear your story!

In the Quiet of the House

In the quiet of the house, the only sounds I hear are the clocks ticking. One clock is in the living room, the other in the kitchen. They tick almost opposite of each other but not quite. I never notice them except when the house is silent, but they still continue their conversation night after night and day after day.

In the quiet of the house, I can’t help but still have it on my mind. It’s been several days, but I still feel restless. I still feel like something is wrong or missing. Ignoring it and moving on doesn’t work for me, but I fear removing the patchwork that was silently put there. I anxiously wait for it to happen again and fear that each time will be worse than the time before.

In the quiet of the house, I contemplate the demons and how easily they slither into my thoughts when I’m not paying attention. They take over and tell me that I’m a failure, that I will never get better and will forever be imprisoned by my weight. When they visit, they bring me down with them, and I believe them. I believe their lies, therefore I act accordingly. Sleeping and snacking becomes the norm and the only activities I enjoy. I’ve been here many, many times.

In the quiet of the house, I look forward to the future despite my woes and worries. I know that it does get better, and that life needs the bad times so that the good times are much more appreciated. I go through life’s ups and downs and keep pressing on. Just for today.

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